city syndrome


it's not that i want to be perfect by anyone's standard, but i want to be perfect by MY standard. although i am perfectly perfect by being so imperfect

I'm K, I'm 21 years old.
Height: 5'4" HW: 145 lbs SW: 143 lbs CW: 143 lbs

GW1: 125 lbs GW2: 120 lbs UGW: 115 lbs

135 lbs [pedicure]
132 lbs [manicure]
129 lbs [new perfume]
126 lbs [new watch]
123 lbs [date night + lingerie for R]
117 lbs [professional pics w/ R]
115 [clothes shopping spree!]

Today is perfect out. Perfect temperature, sunny and a slight breeze. Reminds me of summer.. which I’m so excited for. This won’t be another summer that I’m insecure and depressed because I don’t like my body so much that I won’t go out to the beach and enjoy the weather. This time I’ll be able to wear spaghetti straps, and FINALLY wear shorts.. not jeans or pants which I hate doing but that’s all I ever wore. 

It’s good to have a day like this to remind me of that.

Today I weighed, which is down 2.2 lbs from when I weighed myself Sunday (140.2 lbs.) My goal is accomplished for this week.. which is awesome. As long as I lose at least ONE pound a week, I’ll be happy. Doesn’t mean I get to slack off though.. Gotta keep up with it! The more I lose, the better. :)

For breakfast I juiced some carrots, an apple, broccoli, celery, and half of a red bell pepper with my jack lalanne juicer machine. It gives me so much energy to actually have veggies in my body for once. Or maybe I’m just so enthusiastic about the fact that I’m getting healthier? Haha.

Also, my room mate and fiance and I are HOPEFULLY moving out by the beginning of February.. So I can buy a spinner bike and treadmill and actually start working out again ahhhh so exciting! 

I can’t wait to be 118 lbs again.